This is the first time I was ever disappointed about bleeding. For a little while there I was absolutely convinced I was with child. The spots of blood I found in my panties was a painful disappointment.
I haven’t given up yet. I still have time to conceive a monkey baby. I won’t give up. We’ll keep trying this coming month, and I am going to do my best. If I don’t bleed next month, you’ll know that I’ve become the happiest woman in the world.
My period is now in sync with the Full Moon, the complete opposite of when I used to sync my birth control pills so that I would bleed on the Dark Moon. It seems my body is more drawn to a Full Moon Flow. Poetically it makes sense that I would ovulate in the darkness of the New Moon, the way flowers bloom in the darkness of night.
Dear May,
Believe me, I know how strong this desire for a child can be. We have tried to get one for 1.5 year (having two miscarriages along the way) but now finally succeeded (well… in six weeks). It was traumatizing, but now that everything goes okay, we are happier than ever. I am sure it will happen to you soon (very soon, I hope). And in the mean time, try to enjoy the other things in life. You can easiy get very frustrated and that will not help you.
kiss,
rick
Wow!!! Six weeks is soon! You must be so excited. I remember when you wrote me about your wife being pregnant, that was back in October, I was so flippant about making babies. I had no idea you had miscarriages before. I’m sorry to hear that. Thank you for the sound advice. Working on my sites and various little art projects keeps me entertained. My best wishes for you, your wife and your child!