You would think I could have any man I wanted, and that all I needed to do was invite someone over and his cock would be deep in my mouth as soon as he walked in the door. The truth is most people set a date with me then blow me off at the last minute. Often I don’t even get a phonecall, an email, or an apology afterwards. When I do, I realize that their reason for not making it is some form of self-sabotage or another. I try to understand. Sex is a complicated matter, especially when it’s more than just missionary position in the dark between two heterosexuals of opposite sexes. It’s human nature to fear the fulfillment of one’s wildest dreams. I am not immune to this fear. I am not always at the mercy of it. But I have far from mastered it. This site is an attempt to fulfill my wildest dreams, and yet sometimes I find myself feeling ambivalent about it.

I was looking forward to a friend coming by this weekend for a threesome, and when he didn’t show up, I decided instead to update the much backburnered MaysVideos.com. I try very hard to turn negative events into something positive and forward-moving for me. It’s tough to get out of feeling grumpy about the whole thing, but I have to use up all this pent up energy in a way that benefits me (and you, my viewers) somehow. So have fun! Enjoy it! Send me some cheers. I need it right now.