May Ling Su

Video Porncast # 9: Schoolgirl Bondage

Every year since 1999 I’ve been taking a Birthday Nude photo. It’s now an eight-year tradition that brings milestones and memories of years past. It would be interesting to see this series when I’ve got several decades worth.

This year my Birthday Nude is about being a nomad looking for home, the unpacked mirror looking for a wall to hang on.

I got this email today, very likely in response to my entry, “Porn Introspective.” I’m posting it as a new entry, not to put him on the spot, but to correct certain misconceptions. More than likely, he is not alone in this perception. Hopefully, this entry helps others like him to understand. His email reads:

“You are clearly troubled by your “porn life.” I think you should give it up. You also clearly have a mind. There is so much you can do with your mind: Start a business, write, compose music, meditate (I recommend Mindfulness in Plain English by Henepola Gunaratana), and on and on. Above all else, you are a mommy. What could be better, braver or more beautiful than that?”

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Best apple pie in the world! It’s so good, you can stick your dick in it and I’d still eat it.

By the way, dress by Lipgloss & Black.

I am up way earlier than I want to. I admit I’ve been preoccupied lately. I wish I had more time in the day to touch base, type up a little update, take a photo or something.

I’ve always been ambivalent about my porn life. I love it. I hate it. I need it. I am burdened by it. I am ashamed of it. I am proud of it. One thing that is certain, it’s changed my life. It’s changed my perception of myself. It’s affected a lot of people’s perception of me. My friends, my family… It’s been a sifter for the real ones. I’ve repelled the ones I don’t need and kept the ones that matter. I think that’s important. So many people waste my time.

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