Do we control our deepest inner urges? Why does one thing turn us on, and another not turn us on, or even turn us off… What makes us who we are? I have read about studies on humans, that if you tell a complete stranger to observe another human for a day, when interviewed, often the stranger knows more about the motivation of the observed person more than the person does. Humans don’t really know why they do what they do. For the most part we are a sum of childhood experiences, adolescent experiences and adult experiences. Our brains are very different at each stage. It’s almost like they are completely different people. Fact is every cell in our body replaces itself once every seven years. Seven years ago, you were not the same person you are now. Happy birthday.

My entire life I have yearned. I’m a yearner. I feel like I’m supposed to be living a very rich decadent life style full of pleasure, sex, comraderie, excitement, travel, creativity, so I aspire to meet up with that feeling. I need to find my little place under the sun to be happy. So here I am on my journey. Taking it one step at a time, but always wanting more, because there is more to be had. I’ll know it when I get there, but for now it’s the journey I’m excited about. Having fun along the way is part of the plan for me, and a relaxed sexy life is what I want, not a frenzied battle to the top, so I’m in no hurry “to get there”.

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My hot wife gets it on with another guy.

Hey, it’s Jay. It’s been a difficult month getting back into the “swing” of things. After a year in Maine visiting family, getting back to our California lifestyle has it’s ups and downs. Over the past year, May continued to stay in touch with Tom and Sam, two guys that used to join us for MFM sex. It is our biggest turn on, both May and I to team up with another guy, and give it to May from all ends at once. We used to have the luxury of playing when and where we wanted, but now that we are parents, finding any “us” time is difficult. Lounging around naked during mid day, making love, shooting porn… well… those days are over for now. Usually 10PM is when we finally have time for each other, and we are both usually a bit tired, and ready to crash by then, so finding time when we are full of energy is even more difficult.

Tom and Sam were excited to hear that we have returned to the bay area, and Sam phoned one afternoon and asked to visit. May said, come on over, and he did. We all hung out upstairs just talking, playing with our wee one, and catching up. May took Sam off to show him the house, while I watched our kid.

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Max Hardcore and May Ling Su

Hey, it’s Jay. This whole thing of Max Hardcore being sentenced to 5 years of jail for obscenity charges is freaking me out. I wanted to blather on a bit to see if I could come close to how I feel about all this. A few years back May and I were lucky enough to meet Max in Vegas during the adult expo there. I’m a big fan of his videos, they turn me on. When May and I saw him, we went over and said hello. Max was the only polite person to us all day out of hundreds. Every other production house, like Vivid, were very rude. They would cat call at May, saying things like, “you want to work for us, do you take it in the ass?” were the aggressive things other producers of adult video would project. They want to act tough or something. The sad thing is, sure she takes it in the ass, but you still have to be polite about it - LOL. Max Hardcore was an old fashioned gentleman, and it was a delight to meet him. After hanging out at his booth a while, laughing and talking with Max and Catalina, being Jay and May, we whisper back and forth and get it in our minds to do a shoot with Max. He is taken back a bit when we approached him. He laughed and asked if we were part of some sting operation. We tell him we are fans. He looks at May, and asks if she was dropped on her head as a child. He tells us he has never had a hot chick ask him to do a shoot before he had asked her. It amused him, but made him suspect us a bit, since he was already in a state obscenity trial at that time (which he won). We show him our blog and sexy photos, and he relaxes a bit, and phones his crew to prepare an impromptu shoot with my hot wife May. (I just love to watch her get fucked - don’t you?)!

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Max Hardcore is sentenced to 46 months in Federal prison.

And here’s a little more information regarding the case.

Max Hardcore is my friend, and I have performed in one of his videos. I like him. I don’t always agree with him or like his work, but then I don’t always agree with my friends. A lot of my friends make atrocious art, really really bad grin-and-bear-it art. I don’t know how many times I’ve had to sit through really boring films or theater shows, then come out and give my friends a hug because they so badly need validation.

Right now, Max Hardcore needs that hug. He was prosecuted for distributing obscene materials by mail and by internet. Obscenity being defined as amorphous based on community standards makes it almost impossible to reach an agreement as to whether Max Hardcore’s sentence was just or not.

To me this is an attack on freedom of speech. Whether you like his work or not, Max Hardcore does not deserve to go to jail for sending pornos to consenting adults who share his taste in sexual deviance. This case has no identifiable victims, and only serves to terrorize pornographers into the republican mainstream.

I’ve been putting this off for a while. Tonight I finally loaded the xml file I exported from my crashed blog before I declared it dead. It took!!! But it only had January 2002 to March 2003 in it. Big disappointment, but one giant step toward rebuilding my entire archives. Now if I can figure out how to extract the rest of 2003 to 2008 from the database corpse…

Right now I am looking each entry over, checking for dead links, re-path-ing media, taking a trip down memory lane. I should be in bed by now. Every night I tell myself I will go to bed earlier, but every night I get sucked into cyberspace like a junkie.

Everything is rebuilt completely from January to July 2002. There are Quicktime videos up from way back when we were hanging out with Max Hardcore and his entourage. Hot stuff! Those videos are available bigger, faster and sexier on MAYCAM.

Speaking of Max, I got a question from hypoluxahermespan: I don’t know if you want to discuss this, but since you shot for him (wow, what a scene that was). what are your feelings regarding Max Hardcore and his pending imprisonment?

For as long as I’ve known him, Max Hardcore seems to always be in some sort of legal battle defending his right to make the kind of smut he makes. Like Larry Flynt before him, Max Hardcore tests the limits of Freedom of Speech/Self-Expression. He wins every time because America really does care about freedom more than morality. Each community’s mores are so different, but everyone in America will defend their liberty. I have faith in that.

Thanks to all my iTunes subscribers for sticking around through my blog crashing and us re-setting everything up. Here’s a quick video porncast for you, just a little something to let you know I’m thinking of you.

Speaking of videos, I’ve got hours and hours of streaming Quicktime videos of me and Jay doing what we do best - DIY XXX porn - at MAYCAM.com.

I’ve also gotten several emails requesting DVDs of our videos, and until now I haven’t had any available. Well, Jay has been burning DVD-Rs in NTSC format (US/Canada) on his Mac, so now he’s got plenty of:

The Snoop - $50.00
Yard Service - $50.00
Maid/Picnic/Gloryhole/Fisting/Fantasy Island (all 5 shorts on one disc) $75.00
Shipping/Handling $6.00 USPS

Go here for payment info for both MAYCAM and the DVDs.

I’ll post the DVD promo photos soon. Stay tuned!

We’ve got enough content up on MAYCAM now to launch it. Here are some screen captures and a list of what’s in there now:

Jay’s Dirty Photos of May Ling Su

Late Night (27 photos shot in July 2008)
Knit Bikini (33 photos shot in July 2008)
Bunny Love (13 photos shot in August 2008)
Angel (11 photos)
Church Girl (7 photos)
Fantasy Island (25 photos)
Black Latex (80 photos)
Bound (31 photos)
Black Ropes (33 photos)
Mystery House (33 photos)
Nurse May (26 photos)
Pet Girl (31 photos)
School Bound (70 photos)
Video Promos (32 photos)
32 (20 photos)
Russian River (87 photos)
Sintendo (55 photos)
Snake (56 photos)
Treehouse (53 photos)

May’s XXX Videos

Anal Facial
Catalina Cam
Cum Funnel
Fisting May
Glory Hole
Golden Gate
Good Girl
Jet Suck
Lena Lopez
Maid Service
May’s Island
Men’s Room
NY Cab
Oral Ropes
“P” is for Picnic
Pre-Expo 2002
River
Sintendo
Snoop
The Making of (Max Faktor 2)
Tied On My Period
Yard Service

This is only about 20% of all the photos and videos we have in my hard drive. More updates coming.

Those of you who follow my Twitter know I’ve been trying to load my Wordpress blog to the iPhone app. It finally worked, thanks to Wordpress iPhone support, Naked Hosting support, www.hyam.net and maitremiju. Testing now…