May Ling Su

If anyone wants me this week, I’ll be in the kitchen.

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Do we control our deepest inner urges? Why does one thing turn us on, and another not turn us on, or even turn us off… What makes us who we are? I have read about studies on humans, that if you tell a complete stranger to observe another human for a day, when interviewed, often the stranger knows more about the motivation of the observed person more than the person does. Humans don’t really know why they do what they do. For the most part we are a sum of childhood experiences, adolescent experiences and adult experiences. Our brains are very different at each stage. It’s almost like they are completely different people. Fact is every cell in our body replaces itself once every seven years. Seven years ago, you were not the same person you are now. Happy birthday.

My entire life I have yearned. I’m a yearner. I feel like I’m supposed to be living a very rich decadent life style full of pleasure, sex, comraderie, excitement, travel, creativity, so I aspire to meet up with that feeling. I need to find my little place under the sun to be happy. So here I am on my journey. Taking it one step at a time, but always wanting more, because there is more to be had. I’ll know it when I get there, but for now it’s the journey I’m excited about. Having fun along the way is part of the plan for me, and a relaxed sexy life is what I want, not a frenzied battle to the top, so I’m in no hurry “to get there”.

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My hot wife gets it on with another guy.

Hey, it’s Jay. It’s been a difficult month getting back into the “swing” of things. After a year in Maine visiting family, getting back to our California lifestyle has it’s ups and downs. Over the past year, May continued to stay in touch with Tom and Sam, two guys that used to join us for MFM sex. It is our biggest turn on, both May and I to team up with another guy, and give it to May from all ends at once. We used to have the luxury of playing when and where we wanted, but now that we are parents, finding any “us” time is difficult. Lounging around naked during mid day, making love, shooting porn… well… those days are over for now. Usually 10PM is when we finally have time for each other, and we are both usually a bit tired, and ready to crash by then, so finding time when we are full of energy is even more difficult.

Tom and Sam were excited to hear that we have returned to the bay area, and Sam phoned one afternoon and asked to visit. May said, come on over, and he did. We all hung out upstairs just talking, playing with our wee one, and catching up. May took Sam off to show him the house, while I watched our kid.

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This past month has been an emotional roller coaster ride for me. For much of it my feelings were a foggy mess, and I needed to get to a place of resolution before I blogged about it.

Our story has been unfolding in front of your eyes for years. My sexual exploration with Jay is documented on this blog. Over the past four years, our difficulty balancing parenthood and a vital sex life as a married couple was a frequent subject of introspection. We spent a year in Maine to spend time to find ourselves within ourselves. We moved back to California to reclaim our life.

As soon as the dust settled with the move, I got a text message from Trixie asking to come and visit us. It was all very exciting, until two weeks later she informed me she was bringing a boyfriend along, someone I had never met. It became all very stressful for me. Was I expected to play with this stranger if Jay and I wanted to play with Trixie? What followed was weeks of “Why am I reacting this way? What is wrong with me? Don’t I know how to have fun anymore?”

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Max Hardcore and May Ling Su

Hey, it’s Jay. This whole thing of Max Hardcore being sentenced to 5 years of jail for obscenity charges is freaking me out. I wanted to blather on a bit to see if I could come close to how I feel about all this. A few years back May and I were lucky enough to meet Max in Vegas during the adult expo there. I’m a big fan of his videos, they turn me on. When May and I saw him, we went over and said hello. Max was the only polite person to us all day out of hundreds. Every other production house, like Vivid, were very rude. They would cat call at May, saying things like, “you want to work for us, do you take it in the ass?” were the aggressive things other producers of adult video would project. They want to act tough or something. The sad thing is, sure she takes it in the ass, but you still have to be polite about it - LOL. Max Hardcore was an old fashioned gentleman, and it was a delight to meet him. After hanging out at his booth a while, laughing and talking with Max and Catalina, being Jay and May, we whisper back and forth and get it in our minds to do a shoot with Max. He is taken back a bit when we approached him. He laughed and asked if we were part of some sting operation. We tell him we are fans. He looks at May, and asks if she was dropped on her head as a child. He tells us he has never had a hot chick ask him to do a shoot before he had asked her. It amused him, but made him suspect us a bit, since he was already in a state obscenity trial at that time (which he won). We show him our blog and sexy photos, and he relaxes a bit, and phones his crew to prepare an impromptu shoot with my hot wife May. (I just love to watch her get fucked - don’t you?)!

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Having a dog companion has opened me up to life in the outdoors. There’s socializing on the beach with other dogs and people. And then there’s the night walk.

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Continued from Camera Foreplay…

The three of us stripped naked and got into bed. She laid back and let me explore her body. I took the thick pouting lips of her labia into my mouth and sucked, licked, alternately, insistently. I felt Jay’s hands working on my upturned butt as I worked on her. She hardly made a sound. She looked bored again.

Maybe a little bit of dress-up would liven up the menage a trois, I thought. Jay stepped out, and I opened my closet, trying on various pieces on her. Her breasts overflowed out of my tightly hugging clothes. I managed to find a sundress I bought that was two sizes too big on me. She looked beautiful. We ran out to the garden to take more photos before the sun left us for the day.

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Where am I right now? I’m finding that struggles are part of my journey. That the struggle makes me stronger, and that it changes me. It’s like giving birth. Labor pains are necessary to bring life forth. Without a challenge I am bored. Without pain I won’t know pleasure.

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