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Angels in Sodom
On our first Christmas at the church, we invited our friends Beaver, her boyfriend, and their pet parakeets to join our family for dinner. It had been snowing for days prior and I fired up our kitchen making a bean feast: soaked cattle beans baked for a day with pork, molasses, and spices. The warm aroma mixed with the crisp fragrance of an 8-foot pine tree hung with Christmas lights and toys in the living room made the gothic structure feel like home.
On Christmas morning Jay made shepherd pie while I simmered spiced wine on the burner. Beaver braved the blizzard and brought frozen fiddleheads she had harvested from her family’s farm last spring. I sauteed the greens in butter and served it up simple, a little taste of spring coming eventually. For dessert she had made a blueberry stollen but was completely upstaged by my kid, at 20 years old, who baked a psychedelic seed cake so light and enchanting like it was made by fairies.
We sat by the Christmas tree basking in the joy of togetherness. Beaver played her flute, Jay sang and played his acoustic guitar, I sang and played ukulele, the parakeets chirped happily. We exchanged presents, then Beaver and company drove home. Jay and I continued to sing and play more songs.
During a moment of sleepy contentment, we heard a knock on our front door. I opened the pointed arched door to a young man, big, dark blond hair and mustache, dressed all in black.
“Are there services?” he asked. “We heard music.”
I looked at Jay and our 20-year-old kid. I contemplated the possibility that we might have a troublemaker asking to enter our home. Jay is a fierce protector. I rely on his instincts.
He asked, “Are you a musician?”
“Yes,” the stranger answered.
“Then come in,” Jay invited.
Another stranger joined the man and they both entered our home. The second one was older, balding, and had a dark scruffy beard. He had a brick red shirt underneath his coat, jeans, sneakers.
I could feel the nervous energy. We’d just let in two strangers, grown men, into our home at nine o’clock on a winter night. If they had malicious intent, could we defend ourselves?
The men looked around. From the outside our home looks like a church. We have a steeple tower and tall stained glass windows, but inside the space is filled with our hodge podge of antique furniture, books, designer toys, and music instruments.
Jay strapped his electric guitar on. The first stranger sat at the drum kit. The second man sat and fiddled with the electric bass. They were horrendous. Jay knew what he was doing, of course. It’s his instrument. But the man on the drums was making an awful racket and the man on the bass guitar made halfhearted strums.
‘Tang ina, I couldn’t bear it. “May I?” I asked for my bass guitar. The man turned it over to me.
This prompted a switch around. The first stranger got up from the drums and asked if he could play Jay’s guitar. Jay sat at his drum kit. That was more like it. I played bass to Jay’s beats, and the man surprised us with pretty awesome blues riffs on the guitar. It felt good bumping to the beat as I thumped on those fat bass strings. Everyone was in their element.
“You’re a hot bass player!” the second stranger said. Then he started ranting like he’d been waiting to front a punk rock band all his life.
I wish I could have recorded our jam session on my phone, but I didn’t dare break the spell and change the mood. We kept playing, laughing. We couldn’t stop. It was a moment of pure liberation.
“Are you guys angels?” the second man asked in a pause from his rant.
I was thinking they were angels before he asked it. Later on, Jay told me he was thinking it, too.
1 The two angels came to Sodom in the evening, and Lot was sitting in the gate of Sodom. When Lot saw them, he rose to meet them and bowed himself with his face to the earth 2 and said, “My lords, please turn aside to your servant’s house and spend the night and wash your feet. Then you may rise up early and go on your way.”
– Genesis Chapter 19
Never mind the rest of the chapter. The rest of it is fucked up and one of the reasons why I rejected the Judeo-Christian tradition when I was twelve.
But two strangers came to our door asking for services and we had the most fun jam we’ve had in ages. As we quieted down, the men fixated on our kid’s euphonium sitting on the large bookcase, unplayed for years. They took turns attempting to play the horn, prompting our kid to clean it and blow beautiful low notes himself to cap our Christmas night. By ten o’clock, the strangers were gone.
I’m going to file this along with the other strange visitations. An auspicious omen for the coming year. A memory that makes me laugh wildly.
Jay and I played music at an open mic in Maine on New Year’s Eve, then packed the car and drove south to Miami to take our kid back to college after the holidays. We brought the winter with us all the way down to the Carolinas. In South Carolina we stopped for some catfish. I played the piano they had in the corner of their place.
We’re back home now and ready for 2025:
- Write my memoir. I’ve been talking about this for ages, it seems. Write madly, furiously, “like I’m running out of time.”
- Post more regularly on this blog, maycam, and social channels.
- Read more! Read the masters and classics. (Currently reading Bluebeard by Kurt Vonnegut) Read more POC authors.
- Make clothes out of the handwoven fabrics my Mom brought from the Philippines. (The scarf I am wearing in these photos is handwoven by the Yakan tribe.)
- Give myself more handpoke tattoos.
- Get my songs on music sharing platforms.
- Play music more. Write more songs.
- Walk more year round. Swim more this summer.
- Spend more time with friends. Get out. Invite them in.
- Stay sexy. Stay dangerous. Stay focused.
What are you excited to do in the next 12… uh, 11.5 months?
Love, Lust, and Liberty,
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Love & Sex in the Chinese Year of the Water Rabbit
Happy Year of the Water Rabbit! Aligned with the Moon Goddess, Rabbit pounds the elixir of immortality with a mortar and pestle, symbolizing hope, peace, and longevity.
If you don’t already know which of the 12 zodiac animals you belong to, check the wheel below for the animal that corresponds to your birth year. If you were born on the month of January, it might get a little tricky for you. Since the Chinese go by the Lunar Calendar, some or all of January goes under the previous year’s sign. Here is a Chinese Animal Zodiac Sign Calculator to find out exactly what your sign is.
Do you know which animal zodiac sign you are? Then here are my Love & Sex Fortunes 🥠 for your amusement.
Rat: 1924, 1936, 1948, 1960, 1972, 1984, 1996, 2008, 2020
Dear Rats, I am sorry to say that luck in love and relationships will elude you in the Year of the Water Rabbit. Single Rats keep finding undesirable qualities in the people they date. Focus on self-love and decisiveness, whether you are single or partnered. If you are in a relationship, be attentive to your lover’s needs and your own. Explore your sexuality and sharpen your communication skills to make your fantasies come true.
Most compatible signs: Ox is that strong sexy complement to your personality. Dragon and you are a power couple. Monkey makes you so giddy happy.
Least compatible: Don’t hitch your wagon on Horse. Nothing you do will ever be good enough. Goat just wants your money. Rabbit can’t help but do the opposite of what you want. Beware!
Ox: 1925, 1937, 1949, 1961, 1973, 1985, 1997, 2009, 2021
Ox, you are doing so well this year. Hard work in your career is paying off and people are starting to pay attention. Single oxen, when you meet someone who meets your high standards, express yourself quickly and confidently before someone else makes their move. Nurture your love relationships, new and old. Don’t be stubborn over minor issues. Think of the big picture. Find a way to compromise in bed.
Most compatible signs: Rat balances your rigid personality. Snake is romantic and supportive of your work. Rooster will love you with loyalty.
Least compatible: You will clash with Goat. Horse has too much of a free spirit to take you seriously. You have nothing in common with Dog. Don’t waste your time.
Tiger: 1926, 1938, 1950, 1962, 1974, 1986, 1998, 2010, 2022
Tigers, make the most of your popularity this year by expressing your affection for those you are attracted to. Allow yourself to be vulnerable instead of your usual tactic of playing it cool. This also applies to partnered Tigers. Take a chance on letting your partner in on your secret desires. This year your charm can sway your partner to help make your fantasies a reality.
Most compatible signs: Pig may be your opposite but you can really be yourselves with each other. Horse is irresistible to you. Dog brings out your gentle side.
Least compatible: Monkey and you will always argue. A relationship with Snake will be full of suspicions and coldness. Stay away.
Rabbit: 1927, 1939, 1951, 1963, 1975, 1987, 1999, 2011, 2023
Rabbits exude a quiet confidence and strength. Despite being attractive socializers, you tend to be secretive and have your mind on the moon. You need lovers who will surprise you every so often to spice things up. Single rabbits, start a new relationship to keep you grounded in this turbulent year. If you are in a relationship, make sure you clarify any murky friendships to avoid jealousy from your partner.
Most compatible: Dog will be happy to live a peaceful life with you. Pig and you have a lot in common. Goat needs you and you love taking care of that horny Goat.
Least compatible: Rooster and you will argue about the littlest things. Dragon and you may seem like you have a lot in common but alas, you two clash. Rat is tricky, too, because it will take time before differences between you will appear and by then, it will be impossible to agree on anything.
Dragon: 1928, 1940, 1952, 1964, 1976, 1988, 2000, 2012
Dragons, both single and partnered, focus on your listening and empathy skills. Try to see things from your love’s point of view. Instead of blasting fire at your partner, extinguish your anger and speak to your lover with respect, tact, and care. Avoid dwelling on the past. Stay in the present moment and let that fire inside you propel you toward a better future.
Most compatible: Rooster worships you and will do anything for you. Monkey and you are a creative explosion together, just watch out for Monkey’s tricks. Rat’s humor and reliability attracts your stubborn nature.
Least compatible: You and Dog can’t understand or trust each other. Rabbit and you have similarities, but you can only tolerate each other to a certain point. You also clash with other Dragons. There can only be one!
Snake: 1941, 1953, 1965, 1977, 1989, 2001, 2013
Single Snakes, the Year of the Water Rabbit is a good time to master your temperament. Once you do this, you will attract the kind of lover you want in life. Partnered Snakes, don’t exhaust yourself arguing over insignificant matters. Anger is a venom that will poison you. Breathe… if it does not matter, let it go. Use that sexy tongue for whispering sweet nothings and for pleasuring your lover.
Most compatible: Monkey and you have similarities. You admire Rooster’s good taste and ability to avoid getting eaten up by you. Ox grounds you and is a reliable anchor.
Least compatible: Tiger is too suspicious and cold. Pig will tolerate you, but can’t trust you. I mean, you’re a Snake! And admittedly, Pig is good eatin’!
Horse: 1942, 1954, 1966, 1978, 1990, 2002, 2014
Horses, the Year of the Water Rabbit will be smooth for you. Single Horses will be lucky in finding love. If you are partnered, look to the future with your lover. You have found your ride-or-die. You can trust and let yourself be reined in. Would you consider being tied up in erotic bondage? Perhaps you are ready to make those plans for marriage, children, or retirement together.
Most compatible: Goat’s tenderness will make you feel content. Tiger will try hard to win you. Dog will be your loyal partner.
Least compatible: Rat will clash with you. Save yourselves the pain. Ox will be difficult to communicate with. Other Horses are great to work with but too similar to be compatible in love.
Goat: 1943, 1955, 1967, 1979, 1991, 2003, 2015
Goats, watch out for a disastrous romance in the Year of the Water Rabbit. Play the field if you are single. Partnered Goats should also play it safe. Things may not be optimum, but avoid tipping the scale for the worse. Be grateful for what you have, you horny beast.
Most compatible: Horse makes up for your shortcomings, and vice versa. Rabbit is dependable. Pig is warm and gentle.
Least compatible: Ox and you can be so stubborn and uncompromising. Rat and you easily misunderstand each other. Dog and you have very few things in common.
Monkey: 1932, 1944, 1956, 1968, 1980, 1992, 2004, 2016
Monkeys, you are at the top of your game this year. People notice your swagger and want to bask in your shine. Enjoy a spicier sex life whether you’re partnered or swinging around. Be careful of letting relationship issues affect your career performance. Protect your good time by keeping work and love life in balance.
Most compatible: Snake is either your hottest lover or your coldest foe. Rat cheers you up like no other. Dragon inspires you.
Least compatible: Tiger will fight you constantly. Pig doesn’t have the same interests and life goals as you.
Rooster: 1933, 1945, 1957, 1969, 1981, 1993, 2005, 2017
Roosters, protect your nest from troubles outside the home. You will encounter many struggles at work and in the world at large, but try not to let it leak into your conversations with lovers and potential lovers. Make your sexual and romantic encounters be an oasis from the harsh world outside.
Most compatible: Dragon’s accomplishments make you proud and you love to boost from behind. Snake gets you, your life and dreams. Ox is honest and a steady partner.
Least compatible: Rabbit has contrasting opinions that clash with yours. Dog and you can tolerate each other but it’s always tense. Who wants to live with all that tension? Other Roosters fight with you often and can’t compromise. Don’t get caught in a constant cockfight.
Dog: 1934, 1946, 1958, 1970, 1982, 1994, 2006, 2018
Dogs, you are such a friendly soul. If you are single, you will have plenty of friends who have the potential to develop into more intimate relationships. Single and partnered Dogs, be clear in your communication and listen well to avoid misunderstandings. Savor the love in store for your on this Year of the Water Rabbit.
Most compatible: Rabbit is kind and supportive. Tiger is reassuring and needs your loyalty. Horse understands and respects you.
Least compatible: Dragon and you are distrustful of one another. You will have intense arguments with each other. Ox and you have dissimilar interests. Goat and you tolerate each other, but that’s it.
Pig: 1935, 1947, 1959, 1971, 1983, 1995, 2007, 2019
Pigs, this is your moment to shine. Celebrate every chance you can. Single Pigs take the initiative when you meet someone you like. Partnered Pigs will fall even more deeply in love with your lovers. Cherish your lover. Have a fantastic year!
Most compatible: Tiger is brave and makes you feel secure. Rabbit wants to snuggle up and bask in your intelligence. You have a lot of common interests with Goat.
Least compatible: Snake will eat you alive. A relationship with Monkey will be full of tension.
Was my prediction for your zodiac sign helpful? Let me know in the comments what your sign is and what your love & sex game plan is going to be on this Year of the Water Rabbit. Good luck to you!
Love, Lust, and Liberty,
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Lilith: Beyond the Deluge
“Make love to me right now, dear Lilith. Let nothing, not distance or heaven’s wrath, come between us.”
Come along with Lilith through the opulence of Inanna’s temple to the secrets of Noah’s ark, fucking demons and mortals along the way. Here is an excerpt from the chapter Lilith’s Mirror.
“A wondrous pastiche of biblical ‘magical realism’ akin to The Satanic Verses, albeit funnier and far more erotic in tone and prose than Rushdie’s works. It also has a sweet and endearing side to some of its characters, and with a plot that dashes in a bit of horror near the end for good measure.”
– ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ from Son of OdinIf you haven’t read the previous books yet, get:
Book 1 Lilith: Queen of the Demons
Book 2 Lilith: Generations of Cain
That should set you up nicely to go Beyond the Deluge with me.
Download Book 3 Lilith: Beyond the Deluge on Amazon Kindle.
If you’d rather listen to me read to you, download the audiobook and spend over 7 hours with me in your head. It will be so intimate, I promise.
Or if you prefer the feel of pages at your fingertips, order a paperback. Contact me at inquiries@maylingsu.com if you want paperbacks signed by me.
Once it’s all over, send some stars my way and a few words of encouragement. I would really appreciate a review. Thank you!
Love, Lust, and Liberty,
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Rainy Birthday Nudes
I had a rainy birthday, so Jay suggested that we recreate our very first photo shoot, Rainy Day Girl. He let me borrow his 100+ year old coat tails, handed me a frog umbrella, and followed me around our backyard with a camera. Tracing our steps back to the first time we played with a camera together was as refreshing as the misty autumn air. It reminded us both of that electric excitement we felt when we first started dating and collaborating.
It’s been over 25 years since Rainy Day Girl. We’ve accumulated deeply scarring emotional baggage as well as amazing memories of profound connection. I am grateful for all of it. I open myself up for more. At some point during our rainy day frolic in the backyard I got down on a bed of wet autumn leaves on the ground. Sometimes the only way to create beauty is to get dirty.
Celebrate my birthday nudes with me.
Love, Lust, and Liberty,
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Summer Wrap Up
Read an excerpt from Lilith: Beyond the Deluge I’ve had a relaxing summer, spending time outdoors and swimming in a nearby lake in between finally finishing writing Lilith: Beyond the Deluge.
It’s been several years in the making and I’ve had the most difficult time writing it. It is inspired by ancient Mesopotamian lore, like the first two books in the Lilith series. I drew inspiration from the flood accounts in the book of Genesis, the epic of Gilgamesh, and the Puranas, as well as the book of Inanna. Then I took (a lot) more creative license to fill in what seems like a simple children’s bedtime story.
It is a supernatural and occult fantasy, a genre I love to read. I took the pressure off myself to make erotica. I let the characters speak through me and only wrote sex scenes when the story called for it. The result was incredibly organic, connected, and hot sex scenes, as you can expect from a slut like me who writes from experience. I poured a lot of my life, not just sex, into the stories that make up Lilith: Beyond the Deluge. It is the most personal volume in the Lilith series. I can’t wait to share it with you.
Today I begin recording and producing the audiobook. Stayed tuned for a Scorpio season release.
Love, Lust, and Liberty,
P.S. A little social round up:
Earlier in the summer I did a little survey on gas prices around the world and learned that Singapore pays for it the most!
When navigating good vs. evil, bring a popsicle to keep you hydrated.
Can you tell that I love hammocks? Here is another one.
Also ICYMI I went on an early morning ride in a hot air balloon. It was exhilarating! An unforgettable experience that made me fantasize about a hot air balloon gang bang 1500 feet above the ground.
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Cream pies are healthy 😋
I got my IUD removed. 🍑⚡️ It was a quick process and done before I knew it. Since it had been a year since my last period I figured that my ovulating days are probably over.
Doc said I have a nice pink cervix, healthy inner muscles, from getting regularly fucked and cum into. I still have strong orgasms that suck up every last drop of semen I get.
Which apparently is the best way to get natural hormone therapy. Let’s break it down:
- Average volume of semen per ejaculation: 1.5 to 5 mL
- Average amount of estrogen per 5 mL ejaculation: 2-3 mg
- Average amount of progesterone per 5 mL ejaculation: 50-70 mg
Compared to Hormone Replacement Therapy meds, that’s a lot more bang for my buck and a hell of a lot more fun.
So let’s keep getting it, my Golden Girls! Let your body bloom well into those senior years. Keep nurturing your sexual relationships. Stay healthy and stay sexy.
Cheers! 🍷